The Fourth Trimester

Picture this: You’re laying in your bed with a pillow propping your baby up to nurse. The baby will nurse for a moment and pull away. Sweet little bear. You try to reattach the baby. They reattach for 30 seconds and you sigh a sigh of relief, right before the baby detaches again. You repeat this process for about 5 minutes and finally, the tiny human attaches and stays there. You hold your breath, trying not to fuck it up. Once you realize that the baby is latched and feeding

Don't Worry, Baby

Tennessee is currently a very conservative state. This is America and our differences are what make this such a great country. This does mean, however, that men are voting on all things lady-related. Anything having to do with a woman's uterus or a fetus is regulated by very strict, conservative people. When I found out I was pregnant and had no insurance, this allowed me to breathe a sigh of relief. I may not be able to have insurance in this state, but my unborn fetus has m

Stretch It Out

The week I found out I was pregnant, I began researching ways to prevent stretch marks. Some oils reach below the surface of the skin and promise to be more effective. Some celebrities swear by this lotion or that. I spent almost $25 on a small bottle of oil from CVS and began applying it daily. The bottle recommended that I begin applying the oil after the first trimester, but I didn't want to wait. After about a week, I realized that I wasn't growing as rapidly as I expecte

Eat Me

It's only the first trimester of my very vegan pregnancy and while some scents are off-putting, pretty much all (vegan) food is on the table. Thankfully, I don't have any morning sickness at all, but if I even think about eating asian noodles or soup, I gag. This is mostly strange because before we went to Asia about a month ago, I was eating spicy Asian soup for breakfast every day. I, much like a cow, graze all day. Every 2-3 hours I eat something. Sometimes it's hummus, o

Gibraltar

Sorry, but that’s what I think of any time I hear "Gibraltar." So, what/where is Gibraltar? Gibraltar is a giant rock & it's also, a British Territory, shaped like a peninsula on the coast of Spain. I know what your thinking... "Why would you travel thousands of miles to go see a rock? We have plenty of rocks in America!" and while you are correct, this rock is astounding. It literally took my breath away when we first saw it, and that was at night. The juxtaposition of this

Tangier

It is easy to become consumed in the addiction of travel. I LIVE for that fresh stamp smell in my passport, but that isn't the point in traveling, is it? If you don't have the time to go off the beaten path, hang where the locals hang, absorb the soul of a country, then why travel at all? This is especially relevant in today's Insta-famous world. We all want that perfect, iconic shot of us being fucking fabulous in a new place, but once you put the camera away (and you actual

The Devil Within

Mmmm Maybe I should say, the devil you want inside of you... This is my coveted, top secret, best selling recipe for "Devils on Horseback" (Vegan recipe also included). If you are not familiar with Devils, they are more of a flavor concept than a recipe. It can be a date, or a fig, or something kind of sticky and sweet, stuffed with blue cheese, or goat cheese, or any stank cheese, wrapped in meat like bacon, prosciutto, or whatever. There aren't really rules, but the product

New Year, Same You

I'm not perfect. No, that's an understatement. I am in no way, shape, or form, even remotely close to being perfect. I am flawed beyond reason. I think that most of us are. But when the new year rolls around, we are all coerced to follow the time-old "tradition" of making resolutions. We are encouraged to knit-pick ourselves and then make public promises, that we will follow them. "Next year, I'll be better." When I turned 30, I was terrified. I was worried that I hadn't acco

My Weight Journey

Twenty bucks says that you think that's a typo and I forgot to write "loss" between weight and journey. Well, you would be wrong, my friend! Our bodies are constantly changing and evolving. Sometimes we gain weight, sometimes we lose it. That's life, kid. We are taught that once we reach our "peak" bodies (usually around high school or college) that's how they are always supposed to look. And that's why I want to share my journey with you. 100 I hit 100 pounds in 5th grade. A

Supermodel & Restaurant Owner?

Today marks my 4 year anniversary of owning a restaurant in Springfield, Tennessee. Holy Moly. I was only 26 years old when I decided that I was tired of modeling and wanted a change. My husband (fiance at the time) and I moved to a small town outside of Nashville (where my family had recently moved) and decided to open a farm-to-table fine-dining restaurant. We knew next to nothing about the town or the people, but he went to culinary school and is an incredible chef, I lov

Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Edition

If you follow me on social media, than you probably already know that I am going out for the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Edition this year. This decision is pretty random for me. Until Beyonce was on the cover, there were very few curvy women associated with the magazine. Following Beyonce, we had the Ashley Graham cover, and since then, Sports Illustrated completely shifted their usual type to include all shapes, sizes, and colors. My good friend from Russia, Katya Zharkova