Uncharted Waters

On April 1st, yes, April Fool's Day, my husband and I decided to take a pregnancy test. I had been feeling extremely emotional, crampy, fatigued...Pretty much all normal PMS symptoms, but I had been feeling that way for over two weeks. As soon as the test was even started, there was a plus sign in the window. Still, I waited 3 minutes and checked again. Still positive. I read that morning tests are the most accurate and decided to test again the following day... Still pregnan

Hanoi, Vietnam

The constant beeping, much like a never-ending morse-code, calls out through the city all day, and all night; A kind of chatter through the streets, conveying joy, fear, anger, all with a high-pitched beep. My initial response is to be unnerved. Much like a smoke detector that needs its batteries changed, you finally seem to forget about it until another beep startles you. If you ever thought about taking anti-anxiety medication, this is the city where you will need it. There

Beijing

Once we made it into China, we loved it! China is obviously a HUGE country, and we will need to go back to get a feel for the rest of the country, but Beijing was a great starting place! When we walked into our hotel, it was a little after midnight. We promptly checked in, walked through the indoor garden towards our room, and upon entering, flipped on the television while we began to strip the day away. Essentially, the TV was just background noise, but the news was on and t

Gibraltar

Sorry, but that’s what I think of any time I hear "Gibraltar." So, what/where is Gibraltar? Gibraltar is a giant rock & it's also, a British Territory, shaped like a peninsula on the coast of Spain. I know what your thinking... "Why would you travel thousands of miles to go see a rock? We have plenty of rocks in America!" and while you are correct, this rock is astounding. It literally took my breath away when we first saw it, and that was at night. The juxtaposition of this

Tangier

It is easy to become consumed in the addiction of travel. I LIVE for that fresh stamp smell in my passport, but that isn't the point in traveling, is it? If you don't have the time to go off the beaten path, hang where the locals hang, absorb the soul of a country, then why travel at all? This is especially relevant in today's Insta-famous world. We all want that perfect, iconic shot of us being fucking fabulous in a new place, but once you put the camera away (and you actual

Well I never been to Spain...

I'll be honest with you, I had no interest in visiting Spain. I wasn't against Spain per se, but it was one of the last countries in the Europe for me to visit and I wanted to check it off my list, but I wasn't THAT excited to see it. Ian and I booked a ridiculously cheap flight to Amsterdam ( about $450 through NextVacay.com) and I found another flight from Amsterdam to Spain for less than $80 round trip (through RyanAir.com). So, we could vacation in Amsterdam for three day

New Year, Same You

I'm not perfect. No, that's an understatement. I am in no way, shape, or form, even remotely close to being perfect. I am flawed beyond reason. I think that most of us are. But when the new year rolls around, we are all coerced to follow the time-old "tradition" of making resolutions. We are encouraged to knit-pick ourselves and then make public promises, that we will follow them. "Next year, I'll be better." When I turned 30, I was terrified. I was worried that I hadn't acco

XXX Amsterdam XXX

Every time I tell an American that I'm going to Amsterdam, I get the same reaction. You can see on their face that they are trying to figure out why a nice girl like me would go to a naughty place like Amsterdam. Hahaha And I understand this because when Covergirl initially asked me to go to Amsterdam, I too, felt confused. I had to make an appearance on the following season of America's Next Top Model and they happened to be shooting there. All I knew about the city was that

Supermodel & Restaurant Owner?

Today marks my 4 year anniversary of owning a restaurant in Springfield, Tennessee. Holy Moly. I was only 26 years old when I decided that I was tired of modeling and wanted a change. My husband (fiance at the time) and I moved to a small town outside of Nashville (where my family had recently moved) and decided to open a farm-to-table fine-dining restaurant. We knew next to nothing about the town or the people, but he went to culinary school and is an incredible chef, I lov

Singapore

Have you ever dreamed of going to Singapore? Smelling the east asian spices, walking through the enchanted botanical gardens, sipping high tea on top of the city, shopping in the biggest fashion houses in the world; What’s not to love about this city/state/country? Other than durian, of course. When an opportunity arose for me to model in Singapore, I jumped at the chance to go. Up until this point, the only place that I had traveled to in Asia was Istanbul, and let’s be hone

New York, New York

It calls to me like a scorned lover. Every time I see it's silhouette, my heart stretches with a deep longing, and pangs with a sense of weakness. The city is a companion to the lonely, a lover to the loveless. It is oxygen and blood, grit and glue. It sticks to the marrow and seeps into the dark places where you hide from yourself. It knows your deepest desires, ones that you've hidden even from yourself. The city twists and tantalizes, constantly evolving to rise up and mee

Cheers to 10 Years!

Ten years ago today, I became the Cycle 10 winner of America’s Next Top Model; The only plus sized person to ever win. My life, as I knew it, would never be the same. I remember the excitement of winning after the tumultuous build-up that is reality television. You see, people can not think that you’re going to win. Hell, you don’t even think that you are going to win. Without the ever-changing role of your “character” (aka you, a real life human being) the show would be bori

Cinque Terre

Allow my idiocy to educate you so that you don't have to make the same mistakes I tried to research Cinque Terre. I went on trip advisor, lonely planet, etc. etc. and I had a lot of trouble finding any in depth explanation as to what this destination entailed. Okay, it's five cities that can not be reached by car, but no one explained that three of the cities can be reached by train. I knew that you had to walk from city to city, but no one said what skill leveled was require

Genoa

Genoa/Genova , both are acceptable pronunciations, but try not to say Genovia, which is the country from Princess Diaries. A mistake that I only made once... TWICE, okay? I'm going to be honest, I did not have any desire to go to Genoa. I knew that we would meet our friends (Michael & Geppe) in Paris and that the four of us would go somewhere from there, but this trip was made more because when I searched flights, it was cheap, than "it's a destination that I've always wanted